received an sms from dad last night. "grandma in hospital, she was looking for you" AH! is she okay? well obviously not, else why was she admitted again.
went to visit granny @ sgh in the evening! holding her cold, frail, "skin&bones" hand... i suddenly feel very sad! u know... my heart just felt sour! i very emotional de can!
i still feel this way though im not exactly close with grandma from young, cos i never stayed with her or could speak fluent teochew till a couple of years back. [its still not fluent okay! its only understandable with a mix of hokkien HAHA] during the ride home, thoughts ran through my mind, memories of somewhat 10years ago when i used to go to the paper factory during the school holidays so mum could "monitor" me do my homework! seeing granny still working at the age of 80 and going for occasional smoke breaks! helping fold a few paper files for a small fee of $5 or just being over the moon when granny hands me $20 bucks to spend for the holidays. those were the days.....
well, this year she is 91, bed ridden and frail. daddy said we must try to visit more often. guess we all know there aint much time left. currently waiting for some medicine to wear off so she can undergo some tubing for internal bleeding. argh.. all these just sounds so scary! she'll be fine!
just when we were about to leave at 10. granny called out for mum. she went..... in teochew of course.
granny: where's my bag
mum: i thought you wanted ah gek to bring it home, she took it
granny: (raised voice) NO. i never said so.
mum: its okay. go back to sleep.
u know. this really touched me a hell lot! she was looking for her bag cos she wanted to get money from her purse for me and my sister! so sweet so nice!
grandma, I LOVE YOU!
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