everyone seems to be so sad over something. esp dear friend kimboon. i can tell how he actually feels. the loss of direction in life and it. i cant help but think of what happened to me a year and a half ago. recollecting the pains n sorrows i've gone through. the pain suffered when u lose someone is just like having your dreams all emptied into the trash can or worst.
for me. only time can heal those wounds. that "fake" smile worn during the toughest times were certainly not easy. and after everyting was over and all is calm. you would tell yourself, "the next one that i'll get will last forever. i do not want to be so deeply again". you would want to treat her well to the best of your ability. unknowingly falling into the deep cycle all over again, for this time, u can only hope, and hope that it work out and not go through that hurting emotional cycle again.
you do not want to have the feeling of pain in your heart like a hot knife through butter. the pain that leaves you crying those tear glands dry and ending up with swollen eyes and nose.
the worst pain is when you lose the one u love truely.
