the bitter sadness.
results received so far are far off the mark that is so called acceptable for me. its just too bad. too disappointing. i kind of expected a better outcome. especially for econs. things just seem to go wrong. all wrong. it brings me to pounder on the point if it was all due to bad luck or just insufficient preperations. certainly lady luck was not on my side, duh, and of course i would have to prepare more, i mean MUCH more for the upcoming exams in 6 weeks time. i would have to redeem myself, definately.
the clock just keeps ticking. ignorant. its a race against time to complete all the work at hand. a task that is not easy but certainly can be done. how i wish there can be this stop button on the big fat clock. so i can stop time, or better still, rewind it, buying myself more hours, more days to actually work on.
there is this opportunity cost that is involved. its either i give up most of my social life for these 4 months and attain at least a acceptable result or continue with social life and not give a damn bout sch. it certainly brings me to think why i even chose to come to a jc in the first place. well, yes.. mostly the influence of my parents. would it have been better in a poly? would i excel? of course more freedom of time in the poly. however, with my character, more freedom means no results. i am lost. i dun even know what i am blogging about. i really must sit down n consider, think hard, ask myself. what do i actually want in life.
teacher, parents always say. just give it all you got these few months. it will be over soon. you will enjoy the sweet harvest of fruits at the end of the day. is it that simple? for sure, im one that is not disciplined to sit down n face that stack of work for a long period of time. restless i will get. all these have just got to be sorted out. serious planning on the remainding time left. lots to be done in just so little time.
its really time to buck up n pull up our socks dudes. time is precious. we must now try our very best to put everything aside to concentrate and give it our very best shot, on our last lap of the long learning journey.
there's this mosquito buzzing around my room. i swear, i swear i will smack it dead. just wait. dont u dare bite me.
