hello blog. its been a year since i visited and written in you.
i am now mid way through year 2 semester 1 examinations! AY 2010/2011 (academic year)
did my HS205 Organisations and Organisational Change paper on saturday. 11 Dec 2010! i really felt dissappointed after the paper. still feeling that i did not do well enough, did not bring my points across in a proper manner. it kind of sucks to feel that way.
did my HS209 Sociology of the Life Course today. 14 Dec 2010! well, this paper was better! surprisingly. even though i felt not as prepared as HS205! i felt i better answered the questions, with cited coursework examples. now, i am hoping this module will pull my gpa up!
up next, HS201 Classical Social Theory on 16 Dec 2010 and HS218 Media and Society 17 Dec 2010! no emotions towards how i am going to sit for the paper currently.
having a bad headache now, but i really have to force myself to complete reading my HS218 notes again.. sigh.. who said university was easy? well, probably its because we are in singapore. crazy meritocratic system that i have been imbued into.
well, i was taking a 5min break on my bed in hall when a thought struck me.
Why is it that coursemates in University ain't as close as classmates in Primary/Secondary/Junior College?
well, i guess the scope of the question might just lie within my realm.
we attend lectures, go for tutorials and we are thrown back into our own lives. why don't we have social time? why are we not close? i really dont know how to answer these questions.
thinking through, i am indeed close with a couple of hall friends. but somehow, our relationship or friendship only remain in context of hall. it seems at this stage it is more for companionship. we still get on with our private social lives outside the university environment.
studying in university is pretty taxing in my opinion. with professors that disregard your other module's workload, continuously throwing you with deadlines. its kind of crazy.
haha. thats just one side of the story. of course, for me.. i have hall life, where we engage in various activities. BUT it is only these activities that bring us together for short periods before we return to our own lives.
its weird! it just does not make sense in my opinion. maybe i should try harder to make friends. i realised... maybe i am not as sociable as i was before. maybe i am a changed person.
up till now, the only reason i can give myself for not having a close university clique is because of the shortened time spent with my lecture kakis, or hall friends. we have our own private commitments which we priortise. its kind of sad huh.
this post is not organised, edited in any manner. thoughts simply come as i type them down.
so long for now...
i am glad for shangfei! she's an angel! thanks for being there!
what an ending statement!
